Halloween 2008

This year our ward did a trunk or treat/ Chili cook off on Halloween. We invited Jen and Blake and their cute kids Calvin and Nina to come with us. we all had a great time.

We decided to go with a princess theme, I know girly, but Dallin wanted to be a handsome prince and I know that this is a stage that wont last so I thought "why not" Dallin didn't understand why everyone thought he was a pirate, I guess we should have forgone the pirate hat...

Grant was a cute jester/clown. we couldn't resist he looked adorable! he was the cutest with his wig but that of course didn't stay on longer then half a second.

Katelyn was going to be a beautiful princess up until it was time to put on her costume and then she wanted to be Dorothy from the wizard of Oz. we threw something together that she was happy with and called her Dorthy, unfortunately she had a hard time pronouncing it and kept calling herself "dorky" when people asked. she grew tired of the chuckles and soon refrained from answering all together. she is a cutie!

one of the main attractions of the night was Cameron's amazing pumpkin, yes that right, one single pumpkin with three carvings, we were doing a sleeping beauty theme up until 5 minutes before Katelyn put on her costume, so Cameron did sleeping beauty's castle the Dragon and the three fairies. I spent even more time on a castle made a felt to decorate the trunk, a castle that in the end we couldn't figure out how to pin up so it would stay on the trunk, therefore a castle that no one saw.

the Trunk or treat had a carnival type theme to it, the young women did a fishing game and a feel table, the primary did a cake walk and the Relief society did mini golf and relay races.

We had a great time.

One treatment left... but who's counting?

I went in for my 7th chemo treatment yesterday. Cameron was on call and at the hospital all night so Louise got to come and sit in the green "visitor" chair and watch me drifted in and out of consciousness as the Benidryl takes it's toll.


Me and Benidryl don't get along... don't get me wrong it's a much better relationship then I have with Chemo but it knocks me out. I feel it's effects instantly. my body feels like someone has placed one of those magnetic vests that you wear at the dentist office when you get your teeth x-rayed on it. my head gets all foggy and my speech starts to slur.

Celebrating at the Patrick's house

I was scheduled for Chemo on Katelyn's actual birthday. But don't worry that didn't disappoint Katelyn because it meant she would be spending the day at the Patrick's house. Which is far better then spending it at our house or at the infusion center. The Patrick's have become our second family. My kids absolutely love and adore all of them, and word on the street says they love hanging out with my kids too. It's great when life works out that way.
Louise came with me intending to spend the better part of the day with me in the infusion center reading a book or watching TV while I slept off the Benadryl, Unfortunately, (fortunately?) my blood count was too low to get Chemo so we got to come back home and go to Katelyn's birthday party at the Patrick home.

It did of course take a few hours for them to decide not to give me Chemo so meanwhile back at the ranch this is what the kids did while I was away..

Katelyn and Dallin chowed down on some Mac and Cheese. why is it that when I make them food they hum and ha over it and then play with it until it's unrecognizable as something eatable?

Dallin loves riding this four-wheeler. He rides it around the kitchen-dining room-playroom circle

Emily and Katelyn.

In honor of Katelyn's birthday Emily wore her birthday balloon party dress. they are also both in braids although that's hard to tell in this picture.

Katelyn and Emily helping Liz decorate the cake. Katelyn got to choose any type of cake she wanted and she choose a mermaid. Although, once again she was very close to choosing Dora. she also choose what we ate for dinner and we had chicken nuggets and pears. Liz is so good at making people feel special, especially on their special day. I have learned so much from watching Liz as a mother, she inspires me. It takes an amazing person to have 8 kids and do it with as much grace and joy as Liz does.

Grant eating Cheerios in his new portable high chair. I think my kids are over there so often that Liz decided it might be beneficial to have a chair for Grant. He seems to like it.

Katelyn and Danial Probably helping with the cake some more.

Diane is Great with Grant. it is rumored that Diane and Marie used to fight over who got to hold Grant when he is a new born.

Marie has spent countless hours on the floor playing dinosaurs with Dallin. she is so patient and fun with the kids.

Katelyn turned 4 a few weeks ago. she is getting so big and she knows it. She has transitioned from a toddler to a preschooler. She loves coloring, painting, reading, coloring, playing, watching movies and coloring some more. she is a precious and beautiful little girl.

to go with the princess theme we had the kids, big and small, plant a kiss on the frog prince. here is everyone getting ready to pucker up.

The short kids of this group were kind of at a disadvantage, because the frog was a bit high for them. Thankfully I forgot to hand out prizes so no one lost....

midway through the party Carrie Halverson noticed no one was taking pictures and she asked if I would like her to take pictures of the party. I had completely forgotten about the camera, so it is thanks to her that we have any of these shots.

she wanted a princess themed birthday party, that is up until it was time to pick out the cake then she wanted Dora. unfortunately for Katelyn, we already had princess themed party stuff so we "discussed" it and she settled with a Cinderella cake.

as is typical with birthday parities for this age, she had plenty of help blowing out the candles

a few of our honored guests, From left to right Cameron's Cousin Jen is holding Grant. Calvin and Blake who are Jen's son and husband. Talia and Solana friends from Temple Terrace and Marie and Thomas Patrick friends from the ward.

this is the before and after shots. I wish it were easier to tell but in the after picture she is a mess, she has dirt all over her face and clothes she even tore her dress (don't worry, it's completely fixable). She had a great time.

This pictures were taken by Stephanie. Thanks!

Delayed

Fortunately I feel pretty good this week.

Unfortunately I didn't get Chemo on Tuesday as planned

Fortunately the Taxol doesn’t make me sick or tired, just a little sore.

Unfortunately it apparently lowers my blood platelet count significantly

Fortunately I don’t feel any different when my platelet count is low

Unfortunately there isn’t anything I can do to increase my platelet count except delay chemo.

Fortunately I have Louise here to help with the kids

Unfortunately my kids are still crazy

Magic Magic Boo

according to Dallin you have just been put under a spell. Magic Magic Boo has become his "abra-ka-dabra" and he is often found running around the house screaming "magic, magic Boo" at the top of his lungs. These three words have saved him from many "daddy monsters" and over excited princesses. It's a good thing he discoverd them while he is still young...

a reaction

The nurse calls us back and escorts us to the familiar small green recliner chair. On one side of the chair is an almost comfortable seat for Cameron to sit in, on the other is a rolling stand where they hook the bags of saline solution, Chemo, and other medicine.

The nurse bustles around getting everything ready. As she works she explains,
“This is a type of short term steroid; it will help your body accept the chemo.” She hooks the bag up into my tubing and then holds up a needle, “This is Benadryl, have you even had it in IV form?” I shook my head no. “Sometimes it makes people sleepy, and some people it makes very sleepy”
As she leaves to help another patient it suddenly feels like I have sandbags lying across my entire body. Cameron asks me something and I tried to digest his question and formulate an answer but it was slow going and I finally gave up and closed my eyes.

I’m not sure if I was asleep for 2 minutes or 2 hours or sometime in between, but when I woke, I felt a bit better and the nurse was back explaining to Cameron about the Taxol.
“Some people have a reaction to it. Not the Taxol itself but the solution used to preserve it. It has molecules that are quite large and some people’s bodies have a hard time accepting it. Keep an eye on her; if she has a reaction it will be within the first 5 minutes, push this green ‘hold’ button and it will stop the infusion, then push the call button and I will be here quickly”

She left and Cameron looked over at me and asked if I needed anything. It was still hard to speak so I shook my head and closed my eyes. I noticed my heart fluttering, as I tried to decide if this was normal or not I became aware of my lungs and my chest. They felt heavy and swollen. The swelling sensation moved up into my neck and face. Breathing became difficult. I sat up and tapped Cameron elbow with my foot. He was watching TV and when he turned to look at me he jumped up and pressed the “hold” button on the machine. The nurse was walking passed us to her desk, noticed the commotion and called some people over to help. She had me sit up the rest of the way and breathe deeply. Somehow I was able to comply and appear calm despite the fear tangled up in my stomach. Soon it passed and my body seemed to return to its normal pre-ballooned state. Another nurse called my oncologist and soon I was offered more Benadryl and some other kind of medication. Almost immediately, the sandbags returned full force and I went back to sleep.

We tried the Taxol again at half rate. This turned a 3 hour infusion into a 6 hour infusion. I didn’t have another reaction but I felt pretty drugged up the entire time and slipped in and out of consciousness. We finally got home around 9:30pm.

I never appreciated how well I had it with the 2 hour infusion of Cytoxan and Adriamycin. Cameron and I talked, laughed and planed our lives together. It was nice to have some alone time together despite the actual infusion. The Taxol, or perhaps I should say the Benadryl and Taxol preservative, wiped me out so I’m afraid I wasn’t much company, even with the 4 extra hours of alone time. Hopefully the next one will go smoother. Thankfully I only have 3 more to go.

My Port

I can’t walk around the Moffitt Cancer Center without feeling nauseous. It is especially bad on the 4th floor where the infusion center is located and in the lab where they access my port and draw my blood.

The port is a 1 inch metal circular disk located under my skin about 3 inches under my collarbone. It has a tube that lies over my collarbone and is inserted into one of my veins up there. The process of accessing my port involves me taking a deep breath while the nurse (phlebotomist, technician, whoever she is) pokes a thumbtack sized needle with tubing into the disk, which has to go through my skin first, it hurts for a bit but after that whenever someone needs to poke me they insert the needle into one of the tubes instead of into me. It is way better then the process of locating any of the veins in my arm.

I am seriously doing fine, I know some of you think I am putting on a happy face while I excuse myself to go vomit behind the scenes but I am honestly feeling great this week. I am currently in between treatments. I finished adriamycine and cyclophosphamide two weeks ago and I will start Taxol in one week. and that will last 8 weeks, I will get 4 chemo infusions this next round. and then I will have surgery and possibly radiation after that.
The previous round of Chemo didn't make me as sick as expected. I'm sure the prayers uttered in my behalf had something to do with that. In fact, besides being more tired and having this awful taste in my mouth I felt pretty good. (good might be an over statement but I didn't feel too awful and I certainly wasn't throwing up all over the place like I thought I would be)

I have never been much of a homebody, generally I get a bit stir crazy if I am home for more then a day, and if it's two days we are down right grumpy, so it's been hard for me to keep myself away from public places and I'm almost afraid to report, I have thrown caution to the wind and I am going to the gym on the days that I can, and have even ventured to the grocery store and other such places. This sort of frivolity has come with a price and I have had 3 different colds in 5 weeks but honestly a cold isn't going to effect my treatments in any way and I need to get out of the house. I realize I'm a glutton for punishment.

Really I have felt so blessed throughout all of this craziness. We have had countless people step up to the plate and help us out with meals, child care, Elisabeth care and an assortment of other needs. we are so grateful for that. Cameron has been able to stay focused and has finally decided what he wants to be when he grows up. he is applying for a residency in Radiology and grows more confident in that decision daily. Katelyn has been loving and understanding throughout this whole ordeal. She has suddenly grasped a love of learning and is willing sit with me for hours practicing basic skills. she still asks about my hair and its eventual return. Dallin has become a little boy. he is completely potty trained and loves his Spiderman underpants. He loves tackling and tossing around a football but he also enjoys playing Polly pockets with Katelyn. his new favorite thing is Dinosaurs, he loves them and can even name the more common ones. on a grosser side note, he also likes putting his finger up his nose and offering us his findings, not in a trying-to-gross-you-out kind of way, more like a mom-there-is-something-on-my-finger kind of way. we generally offer him a tissue on these occasions. Grant is getting bigger everday and is trying his hardest to keep up with the other two. he loves to follow them around and "help" with whatever they are doing. He is such a sweet little guy and he laughs and smiles at just about everything we do.

Grant's First haircut.

Although the mullet look is cute and I'm sure it's going to make a comeback we decided to risk the biggest fashion mistake of our life and give Grant a haircut.

Grant loved siting in the sink and turning on the water.

it has become a tradition for Cameron to cut the boys hair. I had planned to cut Grant's hair weeks ago but I wanted Cameron to be able to do it and truthfully I wanted pictures of his first haircut. I did cut Dallin's hair not too long ago and although I did an amazing job, Cameron had to touch it up the next day... oh well.

my short haired boys. This picture of Grant and me was taken at the surgery center where Grant has his circumcision, and that's another story.